Burnout

I have never been this burned out before, or have ever felt this way.

I haven't had a week free of work since a drunken week in Canada with my friends. Why can't I feel like that again?

I show eleven of the twelve phases of burnout listed on its Wikipedia entry. The last one is total collapse. Fortunately that hasn't happened.

I have never been so tired. Some nights I'm not even sure what time I went to bed, because I was so tired I didn't remember anything past midnight.

I woke up this morning and it took every ounce of effort I had to get up and out of bed. I was still too exhausted to make a pot of coffee.

This is no way to live.

I am in the best position I could possibly be in for someone in my field, but it feels so empty. I feel like I've distanced myself from everyone here, and I don't like it.

I think I'm the victim of my own ambition. Being happy is a weird feeling right now, because I put it on to make it look like everything's alright with me. But that's anything but the truth.

Despite the stress of my job and the desire to be the best, it's time to take a step back. I need to get my life back together, because I can't keep going as is. I need help.