This is cool

...and everything is (more or less) making sense.

I'm at peace. I have a really good, firm idea of who the person I want to be is. I have no fucking idea what happened, but I'm living life with a clarity that I'm amazed by. I've made a lot of sense out of my high school days (or daze?) and I've figured out how I want to get started on my career goals.

Of course I don't know who I'll be working for or where I'll live or who will be in my life at that point, but remember, I've found peace. I've found peace with uncertainty. Certainty is something I was looking for up until recently, but now, even though I've realized that there is a lot more in my life that's a toss-up than I ever imagined, I'm okay with it. I've learned that looking for certainty can be crippling and leads to expectations. That's bad.

Is this just temporary, or what adult life is? There's definitely more at play as to why I'm so....understanding of life right now. And I still have no fucking understanding as to why I stay up to 5am every night at home, and it's time for bed.