Why hasn't Christmas felt special in awhile? Maybe it's the school work. After starting high school, the only thing I wanted to do after finals was not give a shit about anything. This year, working until 6pm and showing up to the party at my aunt's place after it had been long underway killed any sense of seasonal joy.
Watching midnight Mass at Holy Name on channel 9 on Christmas Eve provided me another reason. I haven't been to church, not even for Christmas or Easter, in six years. And while I'm not one who believes that one's faith is determined by one's attendance, because I positively don't believe that, there is some value to the idea that my lack of attendance has distanced me from what Christmas really means.
Hmmm.
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